Relived
Written on: Monday, September 15, 2014
Time: 8:56 PM

I'm back to writing again.

I'm proud to say that i have completed my basic training course after much effort putting in. Gotten a sliver for my IPPT which i would say that i am proud of it. This silver award doesn't come cheap or easy as i put in tremendous effort during the past 3 months. Thankfully, my family, friends, bunk mates and my buddy, who gave me a lot of morale and mental support to me. Without them, i couldn't have done it or passing the IPPT.
I'm very grateful to my parents who stood by me when i needed them, showering their love for me when i'm in camp and they called me every night to check on me.
Thank you daddy and mummy.
Next, i'm really grateful to my buddy, who was always there for me, putting up my shit behaviour, mood swinging in the camp. Honestly, without him, i would have struggle in the past 3 months. Thank you buddy.

This 3 months doesn't pass easily..
I lost some and i gained some.
For past 3 months, many things happened, be it happy things and sad things.
I lost my granny during this period of time. I am grateful of what she had done for me.
Many misunderstanding causes my mum have conflicted with her which lessen the time of us visiting her.
But nevertheless, i told myself i would visit granny if i could as she's getting older. I lost somebody i loved before, my grandad. The time i spent with my grandad was less but i was growing up, i know losing someone close hurts and i want to have much memories with granny.
It hurts when i knew she got into ICU and when my uncle broke the news to me where they gonna take down the life support from her, i was in a state of disbelief. I always thought she gonna be okay, but i was wrong.
I blamed myself, why didn't i visit her more often when she was still healthy. If i could have spent more time with her, i would be feeling so down.


She was proud of me whenever i have new achievements. For example, i got into the job i wanted.
My uncle told me she been telling everyone that i finally have the job i always wanted since young, Because it was a job that my uncle have gotten to, which she also felt proud about.

She would always be very happy whenever i visited her during my free time, but has time passes, from being able to sit at the sofa watching tv to lying on her bed everyday.

Thank you granny, for all these years, esp when i'm young, you have doted me a lot, protecting me, cared about me. I would not let you down, and i will become a good officer.
Happy birthday Granny.
Thank you granny for all these of care. I love you.
I grew stronger, but i was always beaten down again.
Especially when i saw her instagram with another new guy.
Never knew that she would have move on so fast. Maybe i wasn't the right one for her.
But i was sincere and true in this relationship which i wanted to become official.
But things always don't go the way you wanted they to go.
The period where everything stop was where the period i lost of my mental will and morale to hang on during the training period. I almost gave up.
I once told myself not to get into a relationship before enlisting, but fate was always there playing with me.
But i'm glad to say, even though it was a short period of time together, i'm still happy.
Thank you for those memories.