Keep smiling
Written on: Monday, September 10, 2012
Time: 1:25 AM

It hurts.
I guess even though how much i tried to move on, the feeling stays.
We broke up a week ago,
I didn't say much to her, or tried to get back with her.

Why?

I still love her. But i could not take another heartbreak.
I'm afraid the same whole thing happen again.
Another hanging process which i hate.

I've to write my feeling somewhere. I guess this is the best place.
Dead blog.

Compared to the previous relationship i have, i'm a lot more happier,
In fact, i thought i was the happiest person on earth.
Somebody who can love who i am,
Somebody who can endure my bullshit,
Somebody who can love my childish way.
Somebody.

She once say "I will be your Nothing, if you said nothing last forever".
I did not believe though.
Things fallen apart, people quarrel, people fight, people leave.
I've seen a lot.
But she made me believed "I will be your Nothing, if you said nothing last forever".

 She was so good to me.
She even made a blog for us.
I was so happy back then, everyday, i look forward in looking at the post she gonna write.

I enjoyed her accompany a lot.
When i was angry, she calm me down.
When i was happy, she happy for me.
When i was sad, she cheer me up.
Her random message make me happy, `cause she's missing me.

She live at the other side of Singapore.
Yes, sending her home and getting home take alot of time.
But i don't mind.
I don't mind seeing her everyday and i dont get tired of it.
Because i get to see her.
Because i get to talk to her about everything.
Even though i didn't send her home alot of time,
But i tried to go to her area and her work place just to visit her.

I am no romantic guy.
I can't cook good food, I'm untidy, i make a fool out myself.
But she still loved me.

But then everything changes.